Woah.I just realised it's a long time since i blogged.Been too caught up with stuffs lately.Alot of studying to be done-and there's a pact between me and my god brudda.We have to score A1s for o'levels.And i accepted the challenge.I was forced to anyway-left with no choice.Cos if i dun do well he will flop his exams for the first half of the year next year.
Well,i seriously didnt noe i could influence him that much.Unknowingly as well.He looked up to me as role model-yet i reflect upon myself and dun find myself worthy of his respect.But now becos of what he said,i will try doubly hard this time for o's.You reap what u sow.that's what ppl always say.And that's true of cos.i mean like..u put in this much effort that's what u will get in return.So why not just do your best for this exam and we can play like hell later?Yes that shld be the case.
So many things that happened.I am just tired of everything.Tired of trying.Tired of waiting.Tired of being myself.So that shld be the case isnt it?Even if i am really feeling down and out,pissified,angry,attitude problem-i cant show it out.No i must keep to myself.That's what i always been doing.Trying to mantain this kind of cheerfulness,when sometimes i really do actually want to vent it all out.I am a human too alright?I do have emotions.Most of the time i am alright.I dont'get angry or become ap.But when i do,i wish that ppl would uds n at least show some concern.From this,i now see everything all so clearly.Who are the ppl who truely cared;and those who dun even give a damn.
No doubt it was my fault.Being the one ap-ing.So i am sorry bout it-tried to apologise and admit that it was my fault.But ok,aside from the other time u appeared to be nonchalant.That made me even more frustrated.Like it was no big deal so if we dun talk.Yeah.actually it was no big deal.and i dunno why i am so affected by it anyway.Coming to think of it i am the one being all childish and stupid and dumb.Now i find myself really silly.I didnt used to be like this.Feel like going insane.But it was still my fault.So i tried to salvage the situation.But hell no.It's another disappointment for me.No response again.I am tired of trying.Everything's futile.So why even try and waste efforts?No one will pity you for it.
everything is just plain dumb i guess.It stemmed from the most trivial thing.Yet i made a mountain out of a molehill.Maybe in the future such a thing will probably happen too.Oni thing is it happened now.So i guess there's no way to turn back.But we all gotta move on.I worry bout it for a few days-then i just realised i am the one being sad that's all.The person wont care.Making myself down doesnt solve things anyway.Yet i treasured this friendship.Trying my best to hold on and do my part in salvaging the situation-but as time wore on,i think i will just buckle under.I will probably just give up later.Cos it's hurting enough.
so much for all the melancholy.Time to snap myself out of it.Jiayou bah penguin!
Well,i seriously didnt noe i could influence him that much.Unknowingly as well.He looked up to me as role model-yet i reflect upon myself and dun find myself worthy of his respect.But now becos of what he said,i will try doubly hard this time for o's.You reap what u sow.that's what ppl always say.And that's true of cos.i mean like..u put in this much effort that's what u will get in return.So why not just do your best for this exam and we can play like hell later?Yes that shld be the case.
So many things that happened.I am just tired of everything.Tired of trying.Tired of waiting.Tired of being myself.So that shld be the case isnt it?Even if i am really feeling down and out,pissified,angry,attitude problem-i cant show it out.No i must keep to myself.That's what i always been doing.Trying to mantain this kind of cheerfulness,when sometimes i really do actually want to vent it all out.I am a human too alright?I do have emotions.Most of the time i am alright.I dont'get angry or become ap.But when i do,i wish that ppl would uds n at least show some concern.From this,i now see everything all so clearly.Who are the ppl who truely cared;and those who dun even give a damn.
No doubt it was my fault.Being the one ap-ing.So i am sorry bout it-tried to apologise and admit that it was my fault.But ok,aside from the other time u appeared to be nonchalant.That made me even more frustrated.Like it was no big deal so if we dun talk.Yeah.actually it was no big deal.and i dunno why i am so affected by it anyway.Coming to think of it i am the one being all childish and stupid and dumb.Now i find myself really silly.I didnt used to be like this.Feel like going insane.But it was still my fault.So i tried to salvage the situation.But hell no.It's another disappointment for me.No response again.I am tired of trying.Everything's futile.So why even try and waste efforts?No one will pity you for it.
everything is just plain dumb i guess.It stemmed from the most trivial thing.Yet i made a mountain out of a molehill.Maybe in the future such a thing will probably happen too.Oni thing is it happened now.So i guess there's no way to turn back.But we all gotta move on.I worry bout it for a few days-then i just realised i am the one being sad that's all.The person wont care.Making myself down doesnt solve things anyway.Yet i treasured this friendship.Trying my best to hold on and do my part in salvaging the situation-but as time wore on,i think i will just buckle under.I will probably just give up later.Cos it's hurting enough.
so much for all the melancholy.Time to snap myself out of it.Jiayou bah penguin!
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