I am drowning in a carousel of thoughts once again..It seems never-ending,does it?Similar to that of a bottomless pit.
Seriously i think i am beginning to lose the rigour and the enthusiasm in the things around me.Ok maybe except for chamber ensemble.=)Setting apart from that,i am beginning to isolate myself from people.Maybe it's a "i just want to be alone" syndrome.Beats me,but my mouth just don't feel like speaking up.And i don't like to mutter under my breath,so i literally remain unnoticed in a social circle.It's either that i don't feel like talking,or i am just lacking of sleep.But there's an underlying factor to this syndrome:Perhaps i have undertaken a change in attitude towards life,and decide to be more rational rather than intuitive.All along i have been telling myself that one must have a postive outlook,but i think it aint that bad viewing life from a different perspective.Not that i have become pessismistic,but momentarily i felt as if i have been living life under a shadow.Come to think of it, as chengying has said,it's very weird for person to socialise too much.He also observed that i can be quiet and private at times,and i don't realy smile alot.hahaha.k lar quite true i guess.that's me underneath that facade.I tink i have always been like that,just that it is beginning to show out more lately..And the crappy lameo me is starting to diminish.Sometimes it resurfaces again,but only at times when i become really hyped up.=)
But i guess the only drawback to this:My interaction with people is adversely affected.Since i cant come up with lame tricks hidden under the sleeves;nor can i think of really something intriguing to discuss about-due to my limited scope of knowledge and experiences.sigh.Is this change good or bad?Maybe it's not really a change,it's just that my emotions show out more now,and i am not afraid of sending signals to people that:i am not exactly in the good mood to talk or i just don't feel like talking,sorry.I think we humans do get tired after a prolonged period of time.
i guess dats all for now.And chin has caused me to be interested in chiromancy aka palmistry.Actually all along i have been interested in the areas of horoscopes and palmistry,just that he incidentally triggered off this spark of interest once again.
gotta get out of the hub now..time to head for home.ciaos
Seriously i think i am beginning to lose the rigour and the enthusiasm in the things around me.Ok maybe except for chamber ensemble.=)Setting apart from that,i am beginning to isolate myself from people.Maybe it's a "i just want to be alone" syndrome.Beats me,but my mouth just don't feel like speaking up.And i don't like to mutter under my breath,so i literally remain unnoticed in a social circle.It's either that i don't feel like talking,or i am just lacking of sleep.But there's an underlying factor to this syndrome:Perhaps i have undertaken a change in attitude towards life,and decide to be more rational rather than intuitive.All along i have been telling myself that one must have a postive outlook,but i think it aint that bad viewing life from a different perspective.Not that i have become pessismistic,but momentarily i felt as if i have been living life under a shadow.Come to think of it, as chengying has said,it's very weird for person to socialise too much.He also observed that i can be quiet and private at times,and i don't realy smile alot.hahaha.k lar quite true i guess.that's me underneath that facade.I tink i have always been like that,just that it is beginning to show out more lately..And the crappy lameo me is starting to diminish.Sometimes it resurfaces again,but only at times when i become really hyped up.=)
But i guess the only drawback to this:My interaction with people is adversely affected.Since i cant come up with lame tricks hidden under the sleeves;nor can i think of really something intriguing to discuss about-due to my limited scope of knowledge and experiences.sigh.Is this change good or bad?Maybe it's not really a change,it's just that my emotions show out more now,and i am not afraid of sending signals to people that:i am not exactly in the good mood to talk or i just don't feel like talking,sorry.I think we humans do get tired after a prolonged period of time.
i guess dats all for now.And chin has caused me to be interested in chiromancy aka palmistry.Actually all along i have been interested in the areas of horoscopes and palmistry,just that he incidentally triggered off this spark of interest once again.
gotta get out of the hub now..time to head for home.ciaos
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